JOSIAH, how sad can this get?

u know, i watch american idol right and like i saw josiah at the atlanta auditions and he was just SO amazing. he really was. like he sang his own song. like he wrote it. and he sang it like with a british accent right and he's american and stuff so that's confusing. bt like before the auditions, he explained like bout his life and stuff and like he said that he left school when he was like 16 or smthin and he lives in his car. like he tours around the country, playing at clubs and stuff like that and at first like, he was really cool about it like he was like showing the cameras his car and like how he likes lots of pillows and stuff like that but like after a while, he became real emotional cuz like it's like so hard, i think for him, especially since he's so young. cuz like, he lives in a car. like alone. and he says like it's lonely and stuff. and like u just feel so bad for him. and like u can see that he's like SUCH a nice and honest person. like so true. no fake hollywood nonsense about him.

and like during the auditions, he sang an original song and it was just so beautiful like it really was. like his song was just SO alternative, indie rock. an his voice really was just so great right and then after that, they made him sing chasing cars and he sang it so so well. and like i really feel like the music industry is just being so corrupted nowadays. like i really feel, that like it depends mostly on your looks now, to be successful. and that's why i'm like so into the whole underground alternative, indie music scene where you're recognised for your talents, instead of your looks like i really feel that most people on the radio nowadays are more like singers instead of artists. cuz like they just sing songs that people write for them and stuff but like people like josiah and all alternative bands, they all write their own music and play their own music and sing and really work hard for success. and like josiah made it to hollywood week and he sang grace kelly by mika and he arranged it and it really was like the best performance out of everyone. like fer seriously.

and like when he got eliminated, like he cried so much. and like it touched my heart so and i really wanted to cry. really. it was probably the saddest thing ever. i'm not kidding.

so, like i thought bout him a lot and like him living in his car right, and i just like tried to put myself in his position. like being alone. no family or friends with you. it's just you, your car and a different club every week and stuff and like i just feel, that it wouldnt be TOO bad to live in your car. it's just the technology part that i would missed. like most of the time, at home. i'm on the net a lot, right. so like if i were to have like my laptop, in my car. that's not too bad. cuz like i'm trying to think of josiah's car as like my room. and i spend a lot of time in my room. it's just like if you live in a car, you prob wouldn't satisfactory hygiene services but like, if you live in a car, there would be no electricity right, so there would be no place to charge your ipod or you laptop and stuff. so it makes me realise like how much we depend on technology as like a source of entertainment now and like it makes me real grateful for what i have.

this is Josiah's audition where he sang the grace kelly song. it was just so beautiful. i love him so.